Does anyone besides me suffer from distorted feelings of self image from time to time? Physically, that is. I am not even close to being thin. I am not beautiful by a long shot. Most often in my case these feelings crop up when I think about my relationships with others. Especially when I try to make excuses to myself of why I think people might or might not like me. I struggle with these feelings, they are not new to me.
Last night I started reading Stand-in Groom (Brides of Bonneterre, Book 1) by Kaye Dacus (Christian romance). During the first few chapters the main character, a woman in her mid thirties, makes excuses to herself as to why she does not have a date. She feels that men will not like her for who she is because her physical appearance is not good enough. She perceives herself as too large and too tall, not the perfect size. However, the "hero" of the story thinks she is beautiful! Isn't it interesting that the way we see ourselves is so often not the way we are seen by others?
I am reminded of Samuel in the Bible who was told by God to anoint one of Jesse's sons as the new king of Israel. Samuel wanted to anoint the firstborn son and when God said "no" he went down the line until there were no sons left -- but the youngest -- who was out herding sheep. I Sam. 16:7 says "But the LORD said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for (the LORD seeth) not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart."
I need to listen to what God told Samuel. Just think. Someone loved me enough just as I am, sin and all,that He died for me. John 3:16! Guess I should revise my view of my value, change my self image and look at myself (and others!) through His eyes and not mine.